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2 years ago
forever and always?
you know what i really don’t understand about boys these days .. the fact that when a boy says he “loves” you, he’d always say “forever and always”. when they say that, i always tend to wonder .. how long’s forever .. how much is always? because, i wonder how many girls he’s had, how many times he’s already said that to someone. and i mean, next thing you know, he’s saying that to some other girl. next thing you know .. he’s holding her, the way he held you. kissing her the way he kissed you. telling her he loves you, saying the same things that he said to you. you start to doubt yourself and ask yourself pointless questions. things get to your head, and you start blaming yourself for things HE did. questions run through your mind like “what did i do wrong?” “was it my fault?” “was is something i did?” “something i said?” you isolate yourself from the world, and you isolate your self from your heart, and most importantly, God. you think you can handle this on your own, and you think that you can overcome this by yourself. little do you know, that it doesn’t help. you need people to depend on, but you feel as if you’re just gna cause them trouble.
if you’re one of these people. this goes out to you. it’s THEIR loss, yeah. it’s not yours. if they left you, then it’s their loss, because they’re leaving one of the most important people in their lives. and you had nothing to do with the cause. if they give you that “it’s not you ; it’s me” shit, then believe it. it’s HIM, it’s HIS fault. don’t question yourself, because if you can’t answer those questions properly, then it’s not worth asking. isolation doesn’t even help. it’ll make you more .. well .. depressed than you already are. causing people trouble is different to telling them your problems because you feel as if you need to talk to someone. thinking that you’re going to make them hate you, won’t help. if you need to let it out to someone, let it out to someone. because if you trust them, and if they trust you, then you know you can tell them.
stupid boys, they do these things to girls and don’t even realise how much shit they cause. they think that they’re so strong, breaking hearts. they don’t realise that we actually care. that we still have feelings, and that we’re still alive. they think that they know the meaning of “forever and always”, and they think that they know what the hell they’re doing. they act so smart, yet, they’re completely oblivious to the fact that they could be breaking someone’s heart. sometimes, i’m actually really scared of that word forever. i know a girl who doesn’t like saying it at all. i think she’s strong, because she knows that nothing can last forever. and i know another girl who’d just tell her boyfriend to shut up if he said “forever”. i don’t really get the point of this blog, but the topic was really bothering me, because of many recent breakups i’ve read through tumblr. i think this one goes out to eletheowl. she’s going through alot, and even though i don’t even know her. i know what she might be going through. long blog ae.
happy ending xo.
Oh, Micah <3
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